Kelly Says It Big

Word up!

speaking of word. i've found another word that is an 'ewww' in my book: quietude. EWWWWW

i've now found a wonderful expression for all of this, thanks to my chum Fran. i am once again 'barfing on my blog'. haha so i hope you all enjoy my 'barf'. hahaha whatever!!!

busy is my middle name apparently. haha i've been blasted w/ busieness, yet i'm so peaceful and resting in God. it's kind of an odd thing.

well...let's see...i was finally able to sit down and have a date on the phone w/ leah on thursday. it was ohh so great to talk w/ you girl. can't wait for our next one this week.

i have to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to drewdog! althogh i wasn't able to celebrate, i'm sure you had a good one man! you're gettin up there now. the big 2-3!!!

i also had a BLAST w/ the haaviks. it was so amazing to spend time w/ them. to see family again. what a relief. haha they blessed me w/ their time and their presence. i'm glad that they were able to come check out IHOP and get a feel for what i'm doing. we hung out the past few days around kansas and missouri. finding some really cool places to eat and get lost frequently. buca di beppos in the plaza, and the elephant bar in kansas. thanks for the great time!! bless you all. i love you!!!!

misty's set on friday was extravagent. i basically have no words. WOW!!! chuck so nicely put it, "that was like an end times opera" haha it was for sure rockin!

yesterday, saturday, we're supposed to have class from 9:30-12 and then 4 hours in the prayer room following. haha class was getting us all pumped up to search out the beauty of God in Revelations 4 &5 and then they throw a curve at us.
"we're going to take you all out to chipotle for lunch and then go bowling!!" haha bitter sweet!
we're like," YES, wait...NO!!! we want to be in the prayer room. no, we want to go eat!" haha it was funny.
so we had a blast eating out and bowling. i'll try to put some pics up for ya'll.

okay kelly, what is God doing? well....A LOT!

i don't really know how to articulate it all, but here it goes.
recently we've been really called to meditation. not weird, mystical stuff, just taking a verse of scripture, and contemplating on it for hours. let's say, this is the hardest thing ever. suddenly, you're thinking of all the things you have to do, and your mind can't just 'be still'. yet, after getting all that out of your way, the revelation that God gives you irreplaceable!

the verses that i've been chewing on are:
Ps 145:18 "The Lord is near to all who call upon Him"
Proverbs 2:1 "My son, if you receive my words, and treasure my commands within you"
Ps 23:1 "The Lord is my shepherd"

let's just say that God has been showing me that i don't really know how to receive from Him. His love, His grace, His cross. this is pretty vulnerable for me, but i know that the more i say it, write it and get it out, the more freeing it is.
what does it mean to recieve? chew on this.
do i really allow God to lavish His love upon me even when i've done something wrong? or do i allow my shame and the lies to overcome me and think that what He's done on the cross isn't enough to cover my failings?
am i mocking the cross by not allowing myself to receive? REALLY??!!!

The fact that HE is near, blows me out of the water. talk about living in the good fear of the Lord. HE IS NEAR!!!! where can i go from Him? Ps 139:7 He is NOT A FAR OFF GOD! HE IS NEAR!!!!

We're beginning our 4 day Song of Solomon Intensive as of today. even more of a wow!! i know that IHOP gets a lot of bad rap for being 'off the wall', 'weird', 'too into song of songs'. but...this book will revolutionize you. i'm not affraid to say this either. 'cause it's happening to me.

we need to discover that this is an absolute neccessity for what we are to be facing in the time to come! We need to look at this as a God given escort through our lives. All that happens in this book isn't just for married people. this is between God and us(His bride).

The best way i've heard this discribed to me is in a little story.
imagine a pregnant woman. she's soon to give birth and is going to birthing classes. they have her husband massage her for a while to relax her. Then they have the mothers pick up some ice and hold in their hands. Soon the pain increases. The women begin to get tense. The husband now begins to massage the wife once again, and is reminding her of his love for her. At this point in time, what will get the wife through the pain, is this very love of her husband.

There are going to be times that we're facing that are going to be the worst cases of pain, persecution, tribulation, and troubled times. The ONLY thing that will get us through is the love and the romance of JESUS!!!! HE'S IN LOVE w/ US!! This will be CRUCIAL in the times to come, but as for now, it is as much a neccessity. We have to get this! it's like the 10 virgins awaiting the bridegroom. will our lamps be full or empty???

so....now that i've officially 'barfed' on you. how does it feel? haha i'm just letting you all know that i'm juggling through all of this along w/ you. that's the only reason why i'm writing this. it's ohhh sooo goood. and i want it, i NEED it to become reality w/in me!!!!

i love you all!! be blessed, and drop me a line!
peace out,
keldog

posted by Keldog @ 10:59 PM